Last Days in Greece

Maria and I had our early morning flight back to Athens, completely sleep deprived and clutching cups of coffee as our lifeline that would see us through the day. Once at the airport we took the train to our old Athens hotel. Once there, we had a continuation of the same issue last time- they refused to allow our travel agent pay for our hotel. Maria and I resigned ourselves to a phone charge before I gave in and let them charge my card…no matter that I had already paid my travel agent the money. They wouldn’t take my Discover card, saying that their machine didn’t take it. I pointed to the receipt from last time that said otherwise, but their inability to be accommodating had them politely refusing to allow any respone but “no” now. I bite my tongue and paid with my Visa.

We fell asleep and woke up in time to go out to eat dinner, like real Millenials. Our late nights of partying with Greek gentlemen were coming back to haunt us, “Remember me?” We decided to eat dinner on the rooftop of our hotel, which had an incredible view of the Parthenon, alight with bright lights and glowing in the surrounding darkness, high in the mountain. There wasn’t a better sight in this city. Despite the frequent injustice of paying for water, it was another truly amazing night in Greece.

My photo was terrible, so I enjoy this stolen but properly cited one:

Parthenoni.

We spent the night enjoying the view, paying entirely too much for WATER, and enjoying our meal. Since our sleep schedule was off, we headed to the room and watched My Big Fat Greek Wedding on Youtube. It made so much more sense after being in Greece ourselves, moussaka, everyone being named Nico, the list went on. We finally fell asleep, to have one last day in Greece. ONLY ONE!

The next morning we were in a mad rush to be on time to the train station to go on a tour of the beautiful city we had neglected the first night we had been in Athens and the previous night before when we had chosen sleep over sights. Alas, it was not to be. We missed out train, close enough to see the doors shut and it starting to pull away. No doubt saying lots of colorful and child-appropriate words, I decided we would catch up with the tour group and join late. Maria was game, and we waited quite impatiently for the next train.

We arrived in time to watch the tour group begin to walk to the Tomb of the Unknown soldier, a rather unpleasant-seeming woman leading them all. She refused to let us join, said we were supposed to pay online and not in person (um, where? The pamphlet had not mentioned a website.) Feeling defeated, we walked away, wondering how on Earth we would see this historic, magnificent city now.

Onto the rescue, was a young woman handing out pamphlets for the Red Bus every major city seems to have. She offered it cheaper than the other woman (who had denied us anyway, but it was ok, we were in a better place now and deserved someone better) because I was a teacher. Not only would we be getting transportation around the city on a very hot day, but we would get a free tour that would be starting in an hour! Lucky us!

Before we left we observed the changing of the guard. I always find such dedication to duty impressive and patriotic, I wished I had joined the Navy or found a way to serve my country that way. Instead, I’ll continue dealing with the snotty teenagers and forcibly educating them. “You WILL love to read!”

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Interesting costumes, eh?

The bus that might as well have been a luxury limo with a sunroof, led us through downtown Athens that we had barely squinted at when driving on a scooter through throngs of cars. We glimpsed the magnificent museum holding centuries of artifacts and history, statues of famous Greek actresses, government buildings, ancient houses, busy fish markets (those are still a thing?). We passed churches, the Temple of Zeus (of which I have a terrible picture, with those damn telephone lines obstructing our view), and Hadrian’s Arch.

Onto our tour!

Unfortunately, not enough people turned up for our tour, so we sat with the tour guide, an enigmatic man with a hooked nose and of course, glasses. You couldn’t have a Ph.D. without them, right? He hopped up when the clock hit the prescribed number, and began talking about the history of the region, and led us on a walk, talking all the while and giving me vivid flashbacks to my beloved History classes at UT Tyler. At one point, reaching the site of an ancient place of gathering and voting of the Greeks, the first democracy, I lost my breath.  He pointed out Alexander the Great had stood at this spot. I made a shocked, yet thrilled groan of excitement, and Maria shot me some side eye and said, “calm yourself,” and “are you having an intellectual moment over there?”

As our Intellectually Sexy tour guide pointed out, most tourists never come to this location, unaware of the significance it holds. If one were going to visit Athens, they must visit the Pnyx, and stand on that hill overlooking the city, surrounded by the dust and dirt of so many ages, the same dust that was between the toes of those early Greek voters. Bits of pottery littered the ground, one from each age in Greee. Our tour guide picked a few up and told us what millenium they were from, before discarding them into the dirt again.

From there our I.S. Tour Guide took us by a church, pointing out the pagan and Christian symbols that had merged on the outside, how one world had merged with the next. He took us to a ancient side people used to believe was the prison of Socrates before he was forced to commit suicide. It was actually an ancient fertility site, Philopappos Monument on Philopappos Hill. He gave us a great image of women coming there at night and howling like wolves, and drinking the water form the natural spring inside, supposedly granting them fertility.

From that tour we said goodbye to I.S. Tour Guide and hopped on a Red Bus headed to the History Museum. We only allowed ourselves two hours before we left, to make sure we could still make Acropolis. The sun was lower, and the light was incredible as we headed up the steps to the top of the hill.

The area was covered with a blanket of fellow tourists, traveling for hundreds of miles to see the Parthenon, sadly damaged by the Ottomon Turks in the Great Turkish War against the Venetians. It is still a magnificent sight to see, and I’m very glad to have been able to travel there.

Upon our return to the hotel, we got ice cream, which I don’t remember getting but the picture I have of us eating it and the relief from the heat we got. We felt our trip had been one of the better ones, and I would be sad to leave Greece.

The next morning, we tried to go swimming one last time (every time we had tried the water had been too cold despite the heat of the day continuing) and were disappointed one last time.

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We packed up our luggage and ate one last lunch, before heading out of our hotel. We took the train to the airport, the same as we had gotten from it before, but this time, the train was late, and stopped before the last stop, so we had to book it to the airport (and me with my luggage handle that refused to come out). We almost didn’t make it in time. We rushed through the airport, dodging people stupidly standing in the middle of the walkway chatting and oblivious to traffic, and made it to the gate in time. My luggage was flagged, so they searched it, making a mess of my clothes and making me worry we were going to miss our flight. Each flight attendant was disconcerted with my red, sweaty face, and told me everything was fine. Yet, when we reached our terminal, the flight just started boarding. We very well could have missed it.

The flight back wouldn’t end, stretching on in an impossible length of time. Two little, blonde, and friendly Canadian boys were seated to the right of us, both named respectively Leo and Alex. Now we had children to distract us instead of a couple obsessed with cheese. The boys laughed at the lines of caution from the flight attenants, reminders of exit doors in the front and in the rear. “In the rear,” they sniggered. “Are we in Toronto yet?” No, their father answered, they were in Munich. The boys were entertaining with their commentary and the little French phrases they would say. I was sad to see them go once we got to the Toronto Airport.

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Of course Maria and I had to eat at a truly Canadian joint once there, Tim Horton’s y’all! Maria texted Trey and begged him to clean his car seats of the perpetual dog hair before coming to pick us up. We got on our last flight and reached the US. Once there we had to go through customs, and when an Asian woman asked me to help her check in on the machines, I walked her through some of it. After another asked, I had to hurry and check in myself before I was mistaken for a worker.

When we finally stumbled out of the airport in Dallas, there was Trey waiting for us. I slept on the way back and woke up to find us in the Walmart parking lot. We went inside for basic provisions, and were greatly embarrassed to be seen with Trey because he insisted on driving a cart around the store.

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Five minutes later, we were at Maria’s apartment, and I fell fast asleep, grateful for the journey, but glad to be back in the good ol’ US of A.

i. Michael, Dr. “Parthenon at night.” Pixdaus, Pixdaus Ltd, pixdaus.com/parthenon-at-night-by-dr-michael-architecture/items/view/163701/. Accessed 19 June 2017.

 

 

A poetess in the family

Ancestry is an intriguing area of study. Family is important, and many want to know where they came from. Look at the amount of people paying for DNA tests and for monthly Ancestry.com memberships so that they can access records and build a family tree of their forgotten, long dead ancestors. I’ve always been particularly interested in history, and I was one of the many spending money so that I could have a better understanding of the people I came from.

Some things you can’t discover by simply adding family members and census records to your family tree. Those are the things you find out when it’s possible to get your grandparents talking about their own families, those memories being the only thing remaining of them now.

One day I spoke with my sweet grandmother, the woman whom all classic grandmother stereotypes must be built off of, who despairs at fattening my skinny frame so I don’t look so hungry. I said something about wanting to pursue my writing career with a master’s program, and she brought up something startling.

“My aunt was a poet!”

“What?” How had I not known of this?

“Yes. She had two published books and everything. Boy, she was a character. It was like she lived in another world. She was so whimsical.”

How had I not known this?

Yet a quick Google search showed me my great-great-aunt’s poems in a collection of American poetry at Brown University Library. In light of my own literary aspirations, and those of my mother and sisters, I had this relative who felt the same way about words and stories that I did.

One more lovely thing about the Internet! But the reality of this story, the heart of it wasn’t in the foreign name connected to mine in a genealogical family tree on the Internet, it was hearing my grandmother say her voice, and get to know this whimsical, breathy woman through her stories.

Thanks for clearing the way Elillian Madeley, with your collections Full Moon and Thoughts gathered along the path of life. I will try to live up to the family legacy this fall in my MFA program!

What would you rather read?

I’ve waited far too close to my deadline.

I’m frantically in the process of finishing my short stories so I can edit 1-2 and decide which ones I’ll submit to universities to get into their Master’s of Fine Arts program. Which would you rather read? That tells me which one to finish first!

Thanks in advance!

Choice-A Rather Self-Important poem

I am handed

A mango

Everyone around me has one

I glance at how they hold it

Tightly in their grasp

I squeeze

I peek

They cut into it

Knives that are set aside

I prepare to copy them, teeth set

They scoop it out

The flesh

Bright

Orange

Flesh

Stuck to it was the green peel

I peek about

Some try bites

They taste the green

It stains their teeth

They stop eating, the taste ruined

Others tear the peel away

Leaving wasted meat attached

I stare at mine

Unable to choose

Reading Bell Jar by Sylvia Plath left me with an image, but unlike the one she was describing, looking at the fig tree, I was standing over my sink trying to ascertain how to cut into a mango. Either way I would go about it, it would be difficult. Either decision I made, additional fruit would be wasted.  I was frozen, with such an inconsequential decision, on how I would go about it. Life isn’t just an arrangement of choices before you, but one decision at a time, difficult and still simple, with differences seemingly innocuous. What did it matter what city I lived in? Yet it could and should certainly affect who I marry, how my career develops, what graduate school I go to, what experiences I have that lead to writings, and if or how I become a published author.

This is all determined by a few choices that will happen early on, and it could all start with one. I stare at my choices, difficult as they are, because of the work involved, and what stakes they will lead to. And yet….it all starts with one choice.

Should I?

Interview as a teacher

Because I no longer work at this school, thereby displaying my workplace to all of the strange people of the internet, I feel safe posting this interview I had with a journalism student. She told me I had been picked as Teacher of the Month and would I answer a few questions. She took my rambling and transcribed it exactly as I said it, so some skimming may be necessary. If you want to know more about the different backgrounds and motivations of teachers, you’ll find this an intriguing read.

Enjoy!

http://thedrumbeatonline.org/726/feature/teacher-feature/

Deeply Traumatized, a Grecian tale

On our first morning of actually waking up in Greece, it was rocky. First off, we had to wake up at 7 am so we could eat breakfast and get an early start on the day since we were supposed to travel to Delphi to stay that night. Second, we were paying the price of enjoying seemingly unlimited wine the night before. Thirdly, we hadn’t had much sleep since starting to travel there. All caught up!
Once again struggling with a very heavy suitcase, the handle still stuck inside the bag, we made our way to the bus station, taking a quick taxi there. The bus station was a bit grungy looking in a rather ghetto part of the city, once having made it inside, we spoke to a local at ticket sales and realized we had made a grave mistake. The internet had promised us beaches and many activities in Delphi, and so we had planned three days in the town. The local told us Delphi can fill only a day, and that we needed to go to Santorini, a beautiful island that most people think of when they think of Greece with beautiful white-washed buildings with robin’s egg blue roofs.
Donkeys in Santorini
Not sure why they had to ride a donkey…why would anyone leave this place??i
Unfortunately, we didn’t have it in the itinerary, and now would be going on the word of this stranger. Maria was disappointed, she had seen Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants and thought most of Greece was like that. She would miss the number one reason she came here.
We ended up about three hours in the bus station with our books, trying to plan Santorini and more days in Crete (our next stop) rather than Delphi. It was a little frustrating, trying to travel the country without reliable reviews or suggestions on what to do and where to go. Having a pregnant woman’s bladder, Maria couldn’t hold it and was forever changed and traumatized by the bathroom that charged you to stand in others’ pee to squat over a hole in the ground. “That’ll be 50 cents.”
“Whoa Maria, what happened to you??”
Squat
ii Unintelligible and yet horrifying sound emitting from Maria’s throat
“I’m forever traumatized…I think I’m going to vomit…I have my own and everyone else’s pee all over my feet.” She moaned, leaving to wash her feet with what was left of her water.
That’s another thing about Greece, unlike Rome, where there are free flowing fountains with clean water all over the city, there appears to be no tap water and every restaurant charges you for bottled water instead. Water is expensive. Who knew?
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A beautiful view of the mountains driving into the town. Hmm..don’t see any beaches…
We took the long bus, arrived in Delphi around seven pm, and stopped to get Wi-Fi at the restaurant/bus station.
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Enjoying that we’re traveling at our own pace. Hey! We found an American flag!
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Found a roadside religious icon. Picture moment!
It turned out my travel agent had booked us wrongly, we were supposed to be in Crete that night. So she fixed it, got us a hotel for the night, and the woman greeted us at the hotel was very kind and upgraded our room. We charged up our phones and went out in search of things to do. The woman at the desk was very helpful in helping us schedule this afternoon and the next morning in Delphi so we would be able to see everything since we would need to leave in the early morning to grab the bus back to Athens.
We explored the Museum there, an hour before they were about to close. The few pictures we got was because of a fussy worker there, who did not like the look of us and told us “no phone” and eventually, as we understood it, “no photos”. Strangely enough, he let others take them, and so we tried to be sneakier after that.
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Car keys man? And…rejected by a statue. Gotta step up my game.
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Maria just wanted to hold his hand…too bad….and believed this statue to be possessed. Its eyes followed her, she was convinced.
Onto the Sanctuary of Athena, our first ancient site to visit!
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A beautiful view all around, the mountains and what’s left of the site!
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“I’m actually here!”
On our way to the site, we ended up awkwardly following a man hoping he was going to the sanctuary (or somewhere else important) and ended up introducing ourselves. He was someone from our bus, an Iranian professor named Naeem. He was living in Norway and also loved to travel. He joined us and we wandered the adorable streets of Delphi and went shopping. We hadn’t liked the look of the stores in Athens, but these had a more uniquely Grecian, and adorably small town vibe. We went about picking out souvenirs for ourselves.
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So many little statues I can’t buy because they’re incredibly breakable!
Maria had a hard time deciding on souvenirs since she wouldn’t be able to go to Santorini (a very sore spot Naeem has soon informed all about) she wanted a souvenir from that city.
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“Don’t remind me, Becky, a postcard of Santorini is the closest I’m getting!
We explored all down the main street of the town and went to the end of the restaurants just to head back to the first one we saw next to the bus station. I got a whole fish, eyes and all, and gave Naeem the info on prayers before meals when Maria and I were debating on who should do it for dinner. We had a good discussion about religion, you know, bonding material.
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You don’t think it looks angry at me, do you? I wonder if it’s haunting me…
We went for ice cream afterward, standing on their beautiful deck facing the dark, sparkling ocean and mountain rims, we used a telescope to find the lights of the far off town.
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We hung out in Naeem’s room afterward, talking about culture and how Norway and the United States were different. Maria and I shared with him the frustrations of living in East Texas, where people can be genuinely good people and yet “good-naturedly racist.” We would be disappointed when we had to leave Europe, where most people seemed to be quite open-minded, educated, and diverse, from all different kinds of countries. Coincidentally, we shared a fascination with the music of Hans Zimmer and discussed that despite Maria’s accented yawn beside me.  A woman next door complained of us having a “party” and we called it quits not long after, heading to bed only to wake up seven thirty to make it to the Temple of Apollo the next morning. Before going to bed, we ordered plane tickets to Crete, to avoid wasting a whole day just to travel to our next stop.
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Evidence of my bad-assness. I killed an inhumanely large mosquito to free up the tub for Maria. I’ll be taking applications for next summer as a samurai wielding bodyguard.
Breakfast was an adventure. There was a breathtaking view of the mountains from an outdoor dining area, and so we took our fresh plates and bowls of food out to a table. Unfortunately, I had put some honey in my oatmeal, and we had to spend the better part of our breakfast defending it from bees swooping in from above.
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My coffee had a short life that morning. I accidentally knocked a bee into it. RIP little fellow, I think I might have just accelerated earth’s end by killing you.
The temple was amazing, everything pulled into an awe-inspiring site, not only with the magnificent mountain ranges all around us but the aged rock formations and carved stones beneath our feet and decorating the landscape, warmed by the peeking of the sun.
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And the crowd goes wild!
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Prophesying a storm up in here.
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The stadium wore Maria out even before going through the steps again…
After we stopped at a spring to refill our water bottles, which apparently the locals use to avoid outrageous prices for bottled water, by refilling theirs once a week. I’m glad they let us go first! The Spring of Castalia was where travelers visiting the temples would have to cleanse themselves beforehand, in the healing powers of the water. And to think, we skipped the line!
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Next we headed to the bus stop, bothering the impatient waiter from last night every so often whether this was the stop or not. People who don’t smile creep me out. What’s wrong with them? Are they serial killers, that they can’t have emotions? My attempts to make him smile did not work, so I backed away back to what was hopefully the correct bus stop. Our bus took us back to Athens, where we took a taxi that overcharged us ten euros to the airport. Two taxi drivers fought Maria’s luggage, taking it back and forth from their taxi trunks, yelling at each other in Greek, with us too scared and unnerved to say anything. They were fighting to scam the dumb tourists, I was aware I was being cheated, but not sure how to handle disagreeing. We made it to the airport, where our flight was delayed, and we also had to rush to a different gate. Cheap airlines, you end up paying regardless. Once on the plane, the flight was delayed another twenty minutes, and so I made conversation with Niko, a student studying in Italy who loved Game of Thrones and wanted to know why Americans love guns so much. I shared my ignorance in this fascination.
Americans showering
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We landed in Crete and took a surprisingly cheap bus to our hotel. Once there, we met another Niko, this one looked and spoke like a model and helped us with the hotel switch around. It turned out they gave our room away for the night because they hadn’t received the cancellation for the previous night. He put us in a hotel down the street for just a night for free and gave us suggestions on a place to go for fun, and restaurants. It seemed like the evening would only get better from here. Except for Maria, a weird very drunk British girl in the lobby tried to get us to eat out of her bag of chips, and when we declined, licked Maria’s hand and told her she was pretty. The girl’s boyfriend came to join us, and we headed out of there as fast as we could. Poor Maria.
We put our things away and dressed for a night out. All the good restaurants were past all the nasty bars and strip clubs that had men out in front of them, trying to get us to come in, and using every tactic in the book. They tried to shake your hands, then used the grip they had on it to pull you in and intimidate you with their closeness and try to convince you to come in and have a shot. I walked in my fast paced style which is more of a fast march, but Maria fell behind and probably looked like an easy target because of her short stature. I had to go back to rescue her, and we finally found a nice place to eat.
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A Texas sign in the town of Hersonissos
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Maria and I at our restaurant on the water
After eating dinner we were completely exhausted, I more than Maria, who had fallen asleep on the plane. We forced ourselves to go out anyway, checking out a place called New York Club. We got in for free (wonder why) and bought two Heinekens. We looked around and noticed it was a bit early to be there, despite it being midnight. It was a strange dance place, there were napkins all over the floor and every time the DJ thought you weren’t dancing enough, he blew an air horn and threw more napkins in the air which then landed all around you. I wasn’t sure if this was supposed to liven up the crowd or not. Shouldn’t you throw candy or something?
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Yup, candy would’ve worked better. Less to clean up afterwards.
From there we went to Palm Beach, a club that seemed like a billionaire’s backyard. There was a sparkling pool with a chair area, and a DJ area with huge bottles of liquor and a VIP area nearby. There were so many people that by the end of the night the next person that elbowed me and tried to push past me, I ended up pushing back. Regardless, it was fun, we danced a lot. The men were a little less gentlemanly than guys I had danced with in Dublin. If you don’t know someone, presumably you don’t want their body pressed up against yours. These guys were unaware of that social rule.
Finally Maria and I found a group of nice guys that were willing to just dance, and have a fun time. We got their contact information in case we’d want to hang out again, and had to call an “early night” due to the hour being 2 am. Another early morning the next day, and no sleep. Well, as my sister (and someone famous) says, “You can sleep when you’re dead.”
Summary of Day 2 and 3
1. Iranians can also be Norwegian. Who knew?
2. Santorini is not all of Greece.
3. Don’t believe travel websites.
4. Apparently bees like honey.
5. Shrine water is apparently really cheap.
6. Cabbies love to scam you and fistfight over your luggage.
7. Americans REALLY love guns…seriously, everyone in Europe knows it.
8. Avoid Machis Kritis Street if you don’t like touchy strangers.
9. Above all…never use a bus station toilet. You never have to go THAT badly.
i. The Sisterhood of the Traveling Pants. Dir. Ken Kwapis. Pinterest. N.p., n.d. Web. 16 Aug. 2016.
ii. Cromwell, Bob. “Greek Toilet Logistics.” Toilet Guru. Apache, Aug. 2016. Web. 16 Aug. 2016.
iii. Beardedrabbit. “How American People Shower.” Reddit. N.p., July 2016. Web. 16 Aug. 2016.

Questions: The Black Sheep

“I’d need a court order. Even with a judge approving it, we shred the files every ten years. There wouldn’t be anything to find.”

That was the breathlessly awaited response I got to a request for information on the black sheep of my family-Emma Schulz Lipenski.

Everyone seems to have one. That grandmother who won’t stop muttering racist comments about your boyfriend under her breath, the uncle who hugs you a little too tightly at Christmas, and the parent that can be counted on to say something awkward about politics that will inevitably lead to verbal warfare over dinner. It’s natural, within social groups there is always a balance of harmony and strife that must be kept, and the black sheep are the daredevils rocking towards chaos with gleeful smiles.

For me, the black sheep that always interested me was the one no one spoke of except in brief one liners that hinted at more than they said, and that was Emma.

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Emma Schulz

Born to poor German immigrants in 1895, Emma grew up in the small town of Yoakum, Texas. It was a town full of German immigrants like herself, which wasn’t a bad thing, not until 1914 when Germany began fighting the United States in World War I. Emma was nineteen when that happened, and no doubt, by now, her family realized what condition she was in. It wasn’t a good time to be German, or to suffer from the disease Emma had. As far as I have been told, by her nephew, my grandfather was that she had schizophrenia.

Who knows when it manifested? It could have been from age 18-22 as my psychology courses say is the most common, or as a child, which is more uncommon. Regardless, in hindsight it seems the family always knew something was different about Emma; that something was ‘off’ about her.

Emma Schulz

To me, this photo, one of the only photographs of Emma as a child hints at the unstable condition torturing her mind. Eyes that are strangely direct for her age, not posing standing, holding a doll, or posing with a family member, but with one finger in her ear and leaning on a tilted chair. Was she trying to block out the voices? Or is this simply a normal photograph, one that made a little girl in a big family happy to have when it was only of her?

Some of my questions can’t be answered, because no one is left alive to tell. All I knew was that the discovery of this photo, and seeing it for the first time, haunted me. Her pretty face, Cherub mouth, white bonnet over dark blonde hair and the old fashioned dress with a stiff collar is an image that would stay with me even if I lost the photograph.

Wild Child of the 10’s

As the young woman that she grew up to be, Emma began to act out in a way that was uncommon for girls at that time. She ran away from home, repeatedly, with young boys from the community or from others nearby. Her father would no doubt wearily pick himself up, and go after her, perhaps taking one of his sons to help. Her family recognized that she was unstable, but wanted to keep her home with them, where she would be safe and loved.

The family faced prejudice from the rest of the town. The German language was outlawed, and the family could no longer converse as they had been. Their thick accents and last name no doubt made them stick out like sore thumbs, and Emma’s condition, should it have been known, would further ostracize them from others. Even today, my grandfather does not like to talk about Emma. His mother did not approve of her, telling her son to never have anything to do with her. Emma was most likely not sent to school, as she could not read or write, according to a 1920 census. So a silence was built around Emma and her condition, leaving her feeling alone and misunderstood, and mute to the world around her.

Christian, Minnie, and Emma

Whoops…

Also in 1914, something happened that her family did not expect. Emma, who was unmarried, gave birth to a son, and named him Robert A. Stein. The last name was just an invention, as there was no man named Mr. Stein who had courted and abandoned Emma, or just ran away with her before her father fetched her back. No, the truth is much more complicated and sinister.

While the boy was publically given a name that didn’t belong to him, and perhaps this presented the situation differently to the public of the town, the father listed on the birth certificate was none other than her own brother, Albert Schulz.

Awkward family incest

Albert was a bachelor, and still lived at home along with Emma. My grandfather tells me he cannot be certain, but the implication as he understood it was that Albert hadn’t been listed as a cover or a convenience, but that he was most likely the father of Robert.

It is unknown, how the implications of her son’s birth played out within the family. There is no doubt Emma was further ostracized now, not only by the people in town but her family. Having a child out of wedlock was forbidden, taboo, the worst stain on a woman’s honor. Emma had gone one farther and had a child with her own brother. Black sheep indeed! Not forgetting of course her brother had taken advantage of her fragile state and loneliness. No doubt more of the blame was placed at Emma’s door, her record with wild behavior couldn’t have helped, but her brother had equal if not more of the responsibility of what happened.

Emma continued to live with her parents, brother, and son, an odd choice, seeing as what had already happened. In 1918, her mother, often cold, stern, yet loving, died of stomach cancer. Two years later, in the 1920’s census, Emma was listed with her father, brother, and child Robert. Interestingly enough, she is listed under a completely different last name than her family members now, referred to as “Emma Lipensky” misspelled as “Lepensky,” and listed as widowed. There is no marriage certificate on file for Emma, and none that I could find despite numerous searches. Later, Emma “Lipinski” is listed as divorced on the 1940 census record when she was kept in the Rusk State Hospital. Was she really married? Was it just a cover for her child, living proof she was not a “pure” single woman? Was there really a Lipenski? If so, did he die or was Emma forced to divorce him because she was not of her right mind, and her family did not want it to be out there that Emma not only had a child out of wedlock, but was also a divorcee? This was yet another of the numerous mysteries surrounding her life.

Orphaned and committed

Emma’s father was broken-hearted after he lost his wife, and died only two years later. With her parents gone, it is assumed that no one was prepared to board Emma and her son. Regardless of when, Emma was placed in Rusk State Hospital in Rusk, Texas, not far from where I live today. She lived a quiet life there, no records remain but for a 1940 census record, placing her there, and identifying her as divorced. Once again, it is unknown where the “Lipenski” comes from, or if it was even a legal surname. My grandfather tells me the medicine they prescribed her evened out her illness to the extent she could function normally. My grandfather said he believed it was lithium, but we can’t be sure.

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It is unlikely that the hospital would allow marriages within, between patients, and so I hypothesize that the marriage/fabricated marriage had to have happened between her parents’ deaths and placement in Rusk State Hospital. The “divorced” or “widowed” question could be answered with the social stigma or Emma’s unbalanced mind when it came to completing government documents. Her son Robert was most likely cared for by family, maybe even his uncle/father.

Robert entered into World War II, after legally changing his name to Robert A. Carson. He didn’t want any ownership to that name he had owned previously, and who could blame him? He left and never returned, his family never knew what happened to him.

His mother spent most of her life at Rusk State Hospital, the grounds beautifully covered with golden brown leaves covering old fashioned, carefully crafted white buildings with cracked façades, overlooking the spacious area. It wasn’t unpleasant, an outside look at least. I didn’t try to get past the opening gate; I didn’t have anyone to visit, and didn’t want anyone to tell me not to take pictures. It didn’t look like an unpleasant place to spend your time, but I’m sure the majority of her experience wasn’t tied up in enjoying the scenery, and have no idea as to the medical procedures and practices towards schizophrenics at the time.

Niece to the rescue!

Shortly before her death, Emma’s niece Oretha Mae Rice came to see her, the daughter of Wilhelmina Schulz, Emma’s older sister. She decided in an apparently unplanned fashion, that she was going to sign Emma out of the hospital. It is unknown when this was, but possibly after Oretha’s divorce in 1985, when she would have been lonely and it would have been more possible to have her move. Maybe she felt pity for Emma, having spent her entire like in the hospital. Maybe she was lonely, who knows?

Oretha drove Emma away from Rusk State Hospital, where she had spent decades of her life, to Beeville, Texas where her brother Jesse lived with his wife. Perhaps she took Emma around to the other siblings as well, introducing her aunt to her now extended family. Jesse knew who Emma was, and kept to what his mother had warned him, when he saw her and Oretha pull up to the house, he stayed in the porch swing next to his wife, and ignored them. Oretha saw he wouldn’t greet Emma, and drove away. He never saw her again.

Emma was entered to a nursing home in town by Oretha, and most likely visited regularly. It was when she had a regular visitor that she died on October 29, 1986 in Beeville, Texas, when she was 91 years old.

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There are some questions that will never be answered about Emma, or the role she played in her family, or even how her illness and actions were affected by the culture and time period she lived in. Most of her will remain a mystery, but at least I know I’ve found all I could.